On 1/9/2015 our new baby boy was born. I have experienced few greater joys on this earth than the pure joy that is found in children. We learn so much about our relationship to God through our earthly families. We begin to have a distant idea of the beautiful and playful and lavish love of God for His children simply by reflecting on how we love our own children.
Where does that love come from if not from a personal, intimate and loving creator?
A friend recently emailed me and expressed concern that I was having another baby. He said, “You are 44 years old, your wife has serious chronic health problems and your finances are already stretched to their limit. I am not so sure this pregnancy was the best idea.”
My friend was right about a few things. I am no spring chicken. My wife is chronically sick and she is tired and broken much of the time. Our finances are already strained and I work 60+ hours per week including my job and side business. I am utterly exhausted most of the time.
Yet, my response was that this God ordained new addition to our family could not have come at a better time. What a blessed and wonderful opportunity for God to show off His extravagant grace and unlimited provision in our lives. I love it when my only hope is Christ. It’s so easy to miss him otherwise. It is so easy to give the glory to other things and not to God alone.
There is nothing that puts the soul at perfect peace like being desperately dependent. The truth is it is only when we are fully aware of our desperate dependence on God that we can truly have faith. We work so hard to have all of our T’s crossed and our I’s dotted and we are so diligent to ensure that we have everything so carefully buttoned up that there is little left to trust God for. It is so hard for faith to survive in that environment. It also dishonors God who has promised to care for us.
Thus says the LORD,
“Cursed is the man who trusts in mankind
And makes flesh his strength,
And whose heart turns away from the LORD (JEREMIAH 17:5)
Am I saying we should live recklessly? No. I am saying that even with all of your doctrine, if your faith isn’t a manifest reality in your life then it’s dead and worthless.
Be sure of this. You can trust God. The most dangerous prayer you can pray is to ask God to do whatever it takes to make you truly understand your utter dependence on Him. When I prayed that prayer five years ago it terrified me but I was more afraid of continuing to live under the deception that you can have one foot in eternity and one foot in this world. You can not.
I can’t say that I have all the answers but “The one thing I can tell you is that all my life I have been needy, and I have been weak, and I have been slow, and I have been afraid, but it caused me to run to him, and in running to him there is such glory. There is such power, there is such life. You see it’s not just they need correct thinking… for men to even be able to grasped with their mind, it must be a thing of Ezekiel, can these dead bones live?” (Paul Washer)
Amen. May the Grace of Jesus be with you.